...: New place,new job everything else are the same.

I am still alive.We moved,I started my job.Life is busy and crazy.Sometimes I just wanted to pause,other times I wish that the day is over so I can get my rest and sleep. I don't have much free time like I used to. I wish I could get it back.Maybe not. This is is probably the first time in a matter of weeks where I am able to sit on the computer and for at least a few minutes have no interruption. Wait, there might be in a few minutes or so. So, I will try my best to at least soak up my free time,and enjoy it.

The change has been quite challenging,mostly on Darrens.Darren is used to being with my 24/7 except when he is asleep. Now that I have to work.Kids get into the rotation between the four of us (managers). He is still adjusting and getting used to having others watch him while I tackle my duty. One night,I cried myself to sleep feeling really sad for my little guy. Now,I think I somewhat feel the sacrifice of those other working mothers who needs to be away from their chickens while they earn money for a living. My job is not that bad though.I am away for at least 4 hours max some days while he plays with the other kids. At least,I don't have to put him on daycare.And I get to have him for the rest of the day.And with that,I feel lucky. Also, I feel like in a way it will be good for Darren to spend time with the other kids,and be a lot more social. Yah know,enjoy the opportunity of being a kid.

My daily life has been too crazy lately that I don't even remember the last time I pause and contemplate. Sad,because I've had a lot of those moments.I needed those moments. It rejuvenates me,it gives me a sense of peace.I think I am able to find time to get those quite moment back little by little since I am getting more used to my routine. This jobs did not only give us a chance to move along and have better plans in the future.It also gave me the opportunity to gain friends and get to know those other 3 Moms that I truly adore. That makes life in this place a lot easier for me. Friends really makes life a lot more fun.

Darren is growing way too fast.He is smart and he knows it.He is continuously learning and growing and showing new tricks everyday. I love it when he tries to copy in his own words what I say whenever we pray.I love the fact that he folds his arms and say the word "Amen" at the end. In his little body and little mind,he knows that we pray cause we have faith, that the Lord will hear answer our prayers. He is my great motivator to be on time for church and not miss the sacrament.He always look forward in partaking the Sacrament.He will get one small piece of bread,and would wait patiently for the sacrament water.My favorite is when he put the cup back into the tray. That simple gesture coming from my own child makes my heart full.I feel grateful because I know that Nate and I are not raising this child alone. We have the gospel.And when all else fails there is one strong foundation that we are holding on and that we are trying to continually build as we raise this little boy.

Life is good.And we are getting by and enjoying our Summer. Did I tell you I am dreading the cold season?