Oh hello!I am still alive. I am all alone.My boys are watching the BYU game at the stadium. Darren is so in love with BYU just like his Daddy. I could not believe it.He knows touch down and first down.He had his first BYU game last week.It went pretty well and so he get to go with his Dad again.My life is still going great.Everyday, I am so grateful for the life that I have been given.My boys make me happy,everyday. Darren is full of energy.He is growing like a weed. This boy is talking so much more now,a very smart kid,I tell you.He is very strong willed.Sometimes,I just want to scream,or stay in the closet and never have to deal with the meltdown.It's the terrible twos,and it's getting worse. But, there are still those good moments,that I would never ever want to erase in my memory. I just keep on telling myself that this little person that I am raising has a very strong and good spirit inside him. And now matter how chaotic our days may be at times,it is worth it. Darren is worth it. And I am so lucky to be his mother,to be able to have this responsibility of raising him,and to make sure that he learns what he needs to learn in order to be a good person.

For weeks now this boy has been climbing out of his pack and play. Our wake up call is him knocking on his door.Some days, we would open the door and we would see him laying on the floor with his pillow and his blanket.It is actually pretty funny to see.Yesterday, we finally let go of the pack and play and let him sleep on a bed. I bought a twin sized bed that is just as tall as a toddler bed. I was so excited, but part of me was kind of sad. It's like hey my baby is not really a baby anymore,he is a big boy now. Oh how time flies so very fast. He did so good,though.He slept well and through the night like usual. Nap time was a bliss as always.Oh how lucky I am to have such a good sleeper. I hope I don't jinks it. He loves to be my little helper. I love that he can actually understand and follow instructions. I feel like this is also the time to actually teach him how to be responsible in his own little way,you know what I mean?

Darren is going to be such a good big brother.He loves babies. He would give them kisses,and would cuddle with them. At times, he still gets pretty jealous. Now, I can actually picture myself with him and another baby. I am excited for this baby to come and join our little family. When I was pregnant with Darren, I was scared and paranoid up to the very last moment. Miscarriage was a hard thing to go through. I didn't realize how it actually affected my pregnancy with Darren. And so when I had him, I was just in awe.I was so relieved that it was done. He is finally here with me,and I finally got to meet him. This time around, all I feel is excitement,and hope, and just pure joy. I always pray for this baby to be healthy. I still strongly believe that God is in control.I am really,truly, and deeply giving my trust in him. Being pregnant is such a miraculous thing, I know that for sure. I don't own my body.I feel like this baby is the boss. And let me tell you I do hate the discomfort.I hate getting up to pee 3 to 4 times a night. I am not one of those lucky moms,that doesn't get sick and their pregnancy is just a bliss. But it is all good. I just tell myself that this a good thing. I am a mother and this how things should be.And I am willing to embrace it, the body change, the discomfort,and all the other things that comes with it.

Oh and did I ever tell you,how happy I am to be married to my best friend. I am so proud of him and all of his accomplishments at work. He is so good to me.Darren idolize him,he thinks his Dad is the B.O.M.B, and that's how it should be,right? I am pretty sure that dealing with a pregnant woman who has a lot of mood swings can be pretty challenging.But he is a trooper,he is so patient and so kind.

Fall is here.I actually love the colors of the fall. I love that we actually live in a place where there are four seasons. I know I am going to be dreading the winter. But oh my gosh I cannot help myself but get excited for the Holidays.

Anyway, I gotta go. I have to pick my boys.

Have a good weekend!

ps: I promise to put up a lot more pictures.My blog seems quite boring without pictures,don't you think?

Oh and we find out the gender in 10days.Any guess?