The bump!

I finally decided to get a haircut. Aah who would have thought what a simple haircut can do to your over all outlook about your self. I know I look fat,and I feel huge.But getting a haircut makes me feel at least a little bit pretty.In this last stretch of pregnancy you can either look miserable or put an effort to look good in order to have an extra ounce of confidence. And I chose the better part. 

I am almost 33weeks.Yes, I still have quite a long way to go. I definitely feel a lot more tired and sleepy these days. But I don't mind at all, this pregnancy is definitely a lot easier than the last one.We are finally getting all the stuff that we need for this baby. I hope that we can  prepare everything at least before I reach 37 weeks. 

I hope that you're all having a good Sunday.We enjoyed Church today.Darren sure loves nursery.Seeing him after class running up to me and calling me "mama" is probably the best part of my day. 

I love that boy.

Call me a momma!

 Since the arrival of our second child is getting close, I am trying to soak up all the one-on-one time I have with my little man. And believe me we have plenty of those. Last week I prayed for some extra energy so that I can actually be active and play with Darren.I try to do my best to limit his time watching the TV. This kid loves to watch TV.I really have to make sure of the time limits and boundaries.

Prayer works miracle.One thing I realize,when you are a Mother you pray for the tiniest little things,that doesn't seem to matter, However,the truth is that it actually matter in your household. I prayed that Darren would not throw a huge tantrum when I try to turn off the TV,or when I say no to things that he is not suppose to do. I pray that he would listen more and that I could communicate with him,and decipher whatever it is that he is trying to tell me. I am trying to avoid the meltdowns,because my tolerance is not as long  and not as good as when I am actually in my normal self,and not in the big preggo hormonal mood. And so far it works. PRAYER DOES WORK.I am a believer.Even though our day is filled with play time time,diaper change, time-outs,warning.We do laugh a lot,and give cuddles,and kisses, we sing and dance too. And at the end of the day I actually feel really good. I feel like I have done my part.And the day, even though it seems like the normal typical day.But still, I could say that it has been a good day.And I learned to really appreciate good days.

Darren is into singing and dancing mode the past few days. He would shake his booty and dance the minute he hears the music,it is hilarious. He would sing even if he doesn't know the words of the song.He will manage to make it work. But I love it when he sings his favorite songs. After our night routine and right after I sing to him at night and I say "night night Darren,I love you." He would then respond and  say "niiighh-niiiiggghh mooommmy..wubyu". And oh it just melt my heart. Two year olds, I tell you.as crazy and as terrible as they say it.It is actually a fun stage. They can be stubborn and independent, but they would still look for you when they need something.They would still give you tons of kisses and hugs before you tuck them in bed. In short, they are still your baby no matter how big they seem to be.

My boy is growing.It is bittersweet. I want to him to stay like a little boy.But I am also excited to see him grow,develop and become his own self.

Don't mind the mess.This is our house.Every single day.Toys,wipes,books,balls and the list goes on. Yes,I try to clean it at the end of the day.You know to  keep my sanity.I still like organization.But I don't really care much during the day. I would rather have those tiny little messes as long as my baby is well fed, bathed,entertain and happy. That is all that matters. 

This boy has finally started to smile on camera. 

Precious Darren and Daddy moment

My favorite. This boy is a cuddle bug, I tell you.

What more can I say? I am one lucky momma,and a happy wife.

Total Randomness

I have a lot of random thoughts. I am getting more and more tired and sleepy everyday. The weather doesn't help with this tiredness.I feel bad for Darren cause all I want is to be a couch potato. But other than being tired, I feel good. I can still sleep at night.Thank goodness. I can still function everyday and be a wife and a mother. I remember before I got pregnant, I was worried sick because I thought that I was going to be incapacitated. I thought I was going to be sick all the time,and wouldn't be able to function. I realize that the desire to get up, function and live is really all in the mind.And if you have the desire to do it,you will. And that is how it is for me when there are days that I feel so pregnant and lazy. 

Totally random but I love this quote that I got from Pinterest. It just about sums up what I am feeling. I am a momma. Every single day I have a list in my head.Even before I go to bed and I know that my boy is just in the next room, I still think of him.In fact,there are some nights when he is fast asleep that I feel like I miss him. Like, I totally forgot how crazy my day had been,and how much he pushed my button. At the end of everyday, I am a Mother. Same feeling that goes with this unborn child. I am excited to see her.I think of her all the time. I get excited to feel her move. I worry about her.I look forward to the day that my Darren will meet his sister.And I can finally call myself a mother of two.It is an exciting feeling.

Another Random thought.Have you seen the movie "I don't know How she does it?"? Well it is not the best flix but I actually like it. I can relate to the character in some ways. But I am glad,I don't have her job. Even though I must admit,that I like the idea of dressing up and I like to wear some fine stilettos.The stress level of working in such a high,time consuming, competitive environment is a scary and crazy thought for me. I am happy where I belong, in the home. I don't mind scrubbing floors in my part time job where I sometimes need to clean apartments, if most of the time in a day I get to be with my child.I get to witness the milestones.

I guess I finally gave in.For the longest time I told myself that I am never going to sign up on pinterest.Simply because I don't want to get addicted. But my friend kept on telling me to give it a try.And one night when I totally have no idea what to make for dinner.I gave pinterest a try.And I got hooked . I was able to make a yummy dinner out of the stuff that I have in my fridge and my pantry from the recipe that I got on the site. I think it's better than being addicted to facebook.hah. True.

Lately, I have been craving smoothies. And since I don't always have the car, I decided to make my own. I have been doing some fruit smoothies.I bought a bag of tropical frozen fruits and a bag of spinach from Costco. I just mix the fruits,the spinach and I  added milk, and yogurt, blend them together,and voila my very own smoothies. Sometimes when I feel kind of acidic and my heart burn is kicking in I would just mix a swiss chocolate powder with a whole milk,add some ice and spinach put it all in my blender.And there you have it home made milk shake. I would recommend it, it is really good. I could not even taste the spinach.My boys love it, too.

I am freaking out.I am on a single digit countdown with this pregnancy. I am 31 weeks pregnant.9 more weeks to go.Oh my goodness. This is all happening way too fast.And I am not prepared. I feel like I have to start all over again.It has been 2 years, I have forgotten all the things that I need for this baby.Well not all of it, but you know what I mean. I know I need clothes,diaper,wipes and the list goes on.Oh speaking of list,I need to start making one. 

AnywayI guess I better stop now. My monkey is awake from his nap.

Have a good day!

My thoughts for today

I feel like I am always busy, and I could never get a break. But I don't mind,really. We really enjoyed our Holidays. I am glad that the Taylor siblings got to be together for the Holidays. It is fun to see all of them and all the kids. I think Darren misses his cousins.He sure would love to have a constant playmate. Oh my Darren, I love him dearly. And I would never get tired of saying it. I love that even though he is getting pretty independent in doing the little things that toddlers do,he still comes to me to give me hugs and kisses. Oh I would never get tired of our cuddle moments. I am glad he is mine. 

My pregnancy is great.I am 30 weeks along. 10 more weeks of waiting or maybe even less.Fingers cross. I really don't mind if this baby comes on my 40 weeks mark and not on my 37. So far, I am feeling great.I don't get impatient because I feel like this pregnancy has gone by fast.If anything,I feel like I need more time to prepare for this baby. I was at my doctors appointment 2 weeks ago,and my doctor said that after my January check up they are going to start seeing me every 2 weeks. And I think it was only that time that it finally dawned one me.This is real,this baby is coming.And I only have a few months to wait. I think after that appointment I started to really pay attention into the little girly stuff that I see in the stores. I finally thought of getting a stroller. My minds are in constant thinking of the things I need, to be ready for this little peanut. I am beginning to get excited every time I see little tiny dresses,shoes,and bows. I am having a girl.And I am freaking excited. I don't know what to expect because Darren was a very good baby. And I feel like I only know how to take care of a baby boy.I heard they are way easier to handle.  But I know that no matter what, this baby is going to be a perfect addition to our family. This girl is going to be my other best friend. I am excited to get to know her,and see if she is going to be the little version of myself. Cause Darren for sure is a mini version of my husband. 

I am looking forward to hold this little bundle of joy. I cannot wait for our family to be a family of four. I love being a mother. Indeed,it is a great responsibility to take care of another human being. But it sure is rewarding. I think this is my purpose in life to raise my children and be a mother to them. I think that parenting is a whole new different department.I feel like Motherhood speaks of unconditional love,undying service,and selfless act. While parenting on the other hand seems to be a lot harder. At least for me.It consists of disciplining,training,routine and all other technical stuff when it comes to caring for a child. And the task can be so overwhelming especially when the little one is having a meltdown, and your expectation is not met, or the kid is sick. But at the end of the day after all the fun little adventure,crying moments,time outs,play time and laughter,and when the child/children are tucked in bed.And you know that they are healthy and happy.Being a mother and a parent is probably the greatest consolation in life.Their happiness is your happiness.And it feels so good.

I always pray for my family.They mean everything to me.I always have a prayer in my heart, a constant plea to my Maker on how I need His help in every step of the way of being a mother and being a wife. I pray for my children's health and happiness and so as my husband. This is the prayer of my heart. 

I love this quote that my brother sent on my email. This year is a year for me to be a lot better,one day at a time. And with all the concerns,hope and prayers.It is my ultimate goal to be fully submissive to HIS will,and learn to recognize His hands every step of the way

“The submission of one’s will is really the only uniquely personal thing we have to place on God’s altar. It is a hard doctrine, but it is true. The many other things we give to God, however nice that may be of us, are actually things He has already given us, and he has loaned them to us. But when we begin to submit ourselves by letting our wills be swallowed up in God’s will, then we are really giving something to Him.” Elder Neal A. Maxwell (“Insights from My Life,” Ensign, Aug. 2000, 9)

Have a good day everyone!